{There, there baby}

{There, there baby}

it's just text book stuff, it's in the ABC's of growing up.

This song is the song I based my blog off of...for many reasons. Tonight I realized I haven't blogged in a while. I think writers call it writers block. I would never call myself a writer...I'm awful! So, I will call it...life.

I'm realizing that this age (26) must be the age (for me at least) that I am realizing what life is really all about. I married at 22. I was ready. I knew. We knew we wanted babies and waited only 3 years.

When Peyton was born she became my entire life. I put her above and before everyone and everything. I do everything with her in the front of my mind and the center of my heart. Besides the random naughty word out of my mouth I try to lead my example.

I became a mama. My favorite and best role yet. It hasn't been until she came along that life seems different than before.

I have always been scared of certain things...water, sharks, snakes, bears...nothing weird....a lot of people fear these things! Since P, I fear a lot more...bigger things....things I can't control.

Tonight I got a picture message on my cell phone. I was going to go to bed...and then I saw it...the picture. My client, my friend had brain surgery.

Now I don't get how people don't believe in God. She went to the doctor for a continuous ear ache. They looked and looked and decided to do a cat scan....just to be safe.

There it was....nothing to do with her ear...but if the front of her brain....was an aneurysm.

The aneurysm that had nothing to do with the ear. The ear that has nothing wrong with. The ear that doesn't hurt near as bad as it was.

Luck?

NO!

GOD!

She came in Tuesday for a nice trim and wax before she headed into the OR....even though they told her no hair cut! She has a mind of her own that woman! She told me they were going to shave her head....the front only....showing me from start to finish where the incision would be...showing me where they would shave her head.

My eyes filled with tears because I was afraid.

She was not.

So tonight when I see the picture...I cry again...because Life sometimes just scares me.

My dear friend who is brave beyond words....writes in her blog about the love and loss of her husband. I read her blog....and I get sad, scared, and can't help but think WHY? I don't get a lot of things in life. I think I try to understand things too much and end up sick from worry. I think most people try to understand these things by trying to imagine it happening to them, to their families, and for some reason I can't bring myself to do that.

I'm too scared.

I think of my two friends tonight...who are so brave, so inspiring, so strong....who don't even know that they are....to so many of us.

To me.

Your inspiring me to be strong, to stop worrying, to enjoy now, and to just BE. Val's words...."let's just be"....have been going through my head over and over and over. I am going to work on just being.....

 

{2.14}

{2.14}

Got woken up by the sweetest P.

She said..."happy balentine day mama".

That was it...my day was made.

Not knowing my hubs was going to be home I had to do some last minute date planning after working all day!!

If you know me at all you know I'm a "planner".

So I ordered in for P, Mark, and I. Our favorite...Boscos.

We all shared an order of chicken mushroom Alfredo and some salads. P has the same favorite as mom and dad....I'm thinking it won't be long till one order isn't enough.

We all ate...then P and I took a hot bubble bath.

Sounds great right?

Well...let me tell you!

Thank the Lord I stepped in first....because I literally BURNT my foot! I screamed so loud Mark came running in.....I paid no attention to the steam rising from below me....ouch!

Fixed that problem.

Ah, soaking with my P in a nice warm bubble bath now.....

until......

Mark spills his HOT coffee on me while reaching for P.

To make it all better he throws a cup of ice cold water 5 seconds after....he is SUCH a romantic isn't he??

Good thing he had sent flowers earlier in the day....not even a little scolding could ruin my mood.

P loved all her treats but I think she likes to give more than receive....just like me.

The two roses in the bouquet that are whitish and off colored were my favorite. I came home to this balloon while explaining how two of the roses were sooo pretty. Mark said...."ya those two Peyton picked out for you". She has great taste!!

So

2.14.11

Happy Valentines Day.

To my family who I shared a not so romantic evening with..but it was perfect.

To my friends who I love and hope to show that to every day of the year.

Till next Valentine's Day....

XOXO



Big girls....they dont cry.

{big girl's don't cry}

They do actually.

I think we cry more the older we get.

And me.

I have been crying a lot this last week.

Why am I writing about it you ask.

Because I have to share what my sweet sweet girl does when she sees her mama crying.

When she sees a tear she holds my cheek so gently.

She tilts her head, squints her eyes, and in the sweetest softest little voice she says..."mama don't crynin, it's okay" "don't cry mama..oh don't be sad".

Mostly I'm sad for my friend but I have also shed a few tears while watching American Idol, and when my pipes were frozen.

My sweet sweet girl, she melts my heart.

I love story people quotes and one of my favorite one's is..

"She said she usually cried at least once each day not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful and life was so short".

I like crafts. I get lost in the moment, loose track of time, UN aware of my thoughts. So, I think it's time for a new craft. I have finally figured out how to "follow" blogs!! And found the best crafting blog!!! Going to make this

over the weekend for P's room. I want to hang them over the vanity were getting her.

This new room of hers is a work in progress!

Today I got these put together and am going to hang above her book shelf.

I save most of her "art work" for daddy to take to work...but I kept this one for her room.

I think decorating with kids art work is the cutest!

I have been scoping out all store in good ol Casper and can not find anything for the new room. So, I'm crafting...shopping online...and going to head to Denver soon.

So instead of room decor we bought these....

P picked them out and LOVES them.

Organic.

A good little treat.

Found at target.

(4 months and up)



Online Shopping

{online shopping}

When P goes to bed you can find me sitting on the couch with my lap top glued to my....lap.

I have found so many cool things lately and thought I would share.

Some cute stickers and paper for Valentine card making.

I love this vintage look.

These pin wheels remind me of the toys I used to love. Much cuter...found on etsy.

One of the two little shortie sets I bought for P and her friend! So sweet.....perfect for a tea party.

anthropology of coarse...I think this was the boyfriend cardigan. I want very badly....but like most moms...I don't buy myself anything...ever!

I might break that habit!

With a tank under and pear of jeans.....yummy.

Another anthro piece.

Okay now this skirt.....isn't something I would normally pick out. However...I have two JULY wedding this summer...and already looking for something to wear. This little number with a tank...pull the skirt on my actual waist...and find an adorable pair of shoes??

What do you think?



Friends.

{you've got a friend in me}

Today and the last few day have been trying.

Trying because I'm trying to be the best friend I can possibly be to  someone who needs me the most right now.

Just praying for the right words, the ability to be there, and knowing when to talk and when to listen.

My heart breaks for my dear friend.

I ask for your prayers to help lift her up and give her strength at this time. (just pray for Shelby's friend).

For me....I'm realizing what friendship is.

When were young it's mostly about how many friends you have.

"Who" the are.

The older you get it becomes more about who is fun.

Meeting new ones...being care free and having fun...with anyone and everyone.

And then it comes to the point where I have been the last couple of years.

The time you realize who you true friends are.

Not letting go of all the other friends who you love and have fun with.

But, realizing there are a special few who you connect with, trust, share with, love, and hold dear.

Because...

they get me.

We view life, love, and future with the same respect.

We have the same values.

We can laugh and cry and we can keep it all between us.

I have a handful.

I will share a few things about SOME of these dear friends without naming them.

One....who called me tonight. Who just knows when I need to talk. Always calls at the right time. Were both strong but weak. She knows one of my weaknesses is my speaking, but she knows my heart is as soft as they come. She knows ME...and I know HER. I love this about us.

One who is my sidekick. Who will always be my best friend. Who makes me feel young and silly ALWAYS. Never fails to make me laugh...sometimes till I cry. Makes me proud to call her my best friend. This is one of those friends who when you think of Shelby...you think of her. And that's the best way to explain her. I would be lost without her.

The ones who are also my sisters. I love inside and out. All of the good and the bad...these ones can drive me crazy but I will always love and never turn my back on. EVER. Who I call because they know me the best....the only people I let all the way in and the only people who know everything and still love me.

The one's I have met as an adult. As a mother. One's I have more in common with than anyone. One's that even though we don't have the history it seems like we have been in each others lives forever. These one's more than just friends they have inspired me as a mother, a friend, a person. They connect with the person I am now....and I realize some of my life long friends are the one's I'm just meeting.

The one who I get to also make out with. This one is the one I love deeper than the rest.  I respect more than anyone else. And knows me inside and out. Who I know better than anyone else. We know the good, the bad, and the worst. We made it a promise to know everything about each other and I know we are the only people who do. I love this about us. I also love that we are so different...and that's okay. I never have ever changed who I am or what I believe in, nor has he. And although we have very different opinions...about a lot....we are on the same EXACT page on the things in life we both cherish.

And because this friend weighs heavy on my heart today I will write a special note about her....I know one day I will read this and think wow...look how far we have come. Because this friend I only met months ago but know she will ALWAYS be a huge part of my life. Someone I literally loved from the moment I met her. When I met her the quote that came to mind was "never mistake kindness for weakness". To me this meant she was one of the kindest people I had ever met....but also the strongest. Over the months I have learned how strong she really is....and her strength is beyond words. She is BEAUTIFUL inside and out. One of the truest most honest people, so full of good, so full of love. Hanging with her is comfortable, silly, full of laughs, she inspires me to be a better mom, wife, person.. I admire her and lift her up. Marinate her with love, and fill her with all my strength. Right now she needs this....and I hope all my other friends can join me in giving this to her...in prayer.

And trust me when I say. I am truly blessed to be able to call these friends....a part of.....my handful.



"If your a bird....I'm a bird".

"If your a bird....I'm a bird".

(the notebook)

Because today I can't stop thinking of this movie.

True Love.

Family.

"You are, and always have been, my dream."

"You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together."

"Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it."

To you and your bird....

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”

V Day

V Day.

I went and got Valentine treats today for the kids.

P has colored on all her Valentines so today she told me who she wanted to give them to.

Since she repeated herself so many times...I took over.

She picked out a few V day treats for her cousins and didn't even ask for herself. I was impressed! Already taking after mom....loves shopping...for others!

Don't let me fool you. I love shopping for myself too. I love shopping period.

I have to be honest....I can wait (because she is already growing up to fast) for her to be in school and having V day parties but I will defiantly be excited for them.

I wont rush it though.

I will patiently wait for those days.....

Trying to think of something fun to do for V day I came across some cute images.

Love ROCKS.

This theme was so cool.

So bright.

I would rather do something with colors like this..

In fact I think I might get these for a party favor for Peyton's birthday party.

I always plan so far ahead.....but I like it that way.

I think my Valentine will be out of town.

So it's up to me to ROCK this Valentines day and trust me I will.

For P!

I know she wont remember...but...it's good practice for years to come.

AND

it's fun for me too!